Kurt Cobain Suicide

Kurt Cobain suicide News in paper
Kurt Cobain suicide News in paper

The Kurt Cobain suicide note was found near Kurt's body in the greenhouse of his Seattle home on Friday, April 8, 1994, at the same time his body was discovered.

Kurt had carefully positioned the note so that it could be easily found by staking it to the top of a pile of potting soil.

Kurt Cobain's Handwritten Suicide Note

Kurt Cobain's Handwritten Suicide Note

In text :

To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone.

I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! .

I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy. Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.

Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.

For her life, which will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!

Kurt cobain

Cobain must be Resting in hell


Killer said...

Letter before he committed sucide, That is written in such a pain, I think he was very much troubled with his life despite of his fame.

MD said...

Cobain's body was found when an electrician visiting the house to install a security system went round the back of the house when no one answered the front door and peered through windows. He thought he saw a mannequin sprawled on the floor until he noticed a splotch of blood by Cobain's ear. When police broke down the door they found Cobain dead on the floor, a shotgun still pointed at his chin and on a nearby counter a suicide note written in red ink addressed to Love and the couples then 19 month old daughter Frances Bean.

The suicide note ended with the words "I love you, I love you." Two days after Kurt Cobain's body was found about 5,000 people gathered in Seattle for a candlelight vigil. the distraught crowd filled the air with profane chants, burnt their flannel shirts and fought with police. They also listened to a tape made by Cobain's wife in which she read from his suicide note. Several distressed teenagers in the U.S. and Australia killed themselves. The mainstream media was lambasted for it's lack of respect and understanding of youth culture.

We'll Always Remember Kurt.......

Fan said...

According to the (Shotgun)Fingerprint Analysis Report, four cards of latent prints were lifted but contained no legible prints.

The Seattle Police Department's follow-up report states that the shotgun was inverted on Cobain's chest with his left hand wrapped around the barrel. This would put the ejection port of the gun to the right side of Cobain's body. However, the same report states that the spent shot gun shell was found on the left side of the body atop a corduroy jacket.

Courtney Love later donated the shotgun, as well as guns seized from the Cobain residence in mid-March, to Mothers Against Violence.

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Anonymous said...

this is so sad i wish it would have never happened he was amazing artist that never new it ppl always gave him hell i believe he hated life. he is a great influence in my artistic life

sam said...

He must have been hurting so much when he wrote this. I wasn't even alive then. I hope he realized how many people loved him and that a couple teenagers killed themselves because of his death.

Loraine said...

:[ ah, it's so terrible to read that note sometimes.

sold.the.world said...

Kurt was indeed in pain.but the fact about the case just don't add up...

Anonymous said...

All these years later..... I was such a angst filled teen. Kurt's songs were my pain. Now that I'm all grown up, I see things with new eyes. I have a family now, and have staked my own claim of contentment.

I wish that Kurt would have just taken a fade. I miss him.

Jonathan said...

As a true Nirvana fan, I've looked into this note and researched the alleged "suicide" of Kurt Cobain.

I'm not sure whether it was murder or suicide, but let me tell you, this is considerable evidence of murder.

Look into this note a little deeper. WHERE is it that he states he is "leaving this world" as a classic suicide note would? Where is it that proves he wrote this with the intention of suicide?

Before I discovered this case of murder, I read Kurt Cobain's Journals, and I was confused. MANY of the facts didn't add up. In the last 3 or so years of his life, he never wrote a single depressed entry, like he did in his high school years. He even found a reasonable cure for his stomach pain and heroine addiction.

So what would drive him to this? Yes, this note puzzled me, it surely sounds like a suicide, but as I said before, look a bit closer.

This note adresses Kurt's leaving the music business, he lost his "passion" for it, and was retiring. Not only this, he had DIVORCED courtney a week before *hint hint courtney is accused for the murder hint hint*.

That is why he keeps saying he is "leaving courtney" and "leaving his child", NOT "leaving this world."

Kurt had purchased a shotgun a year before the suicide, true, but the shotgun found on site was NOT the shotgun he had bought.

If you want more info go to cobaincase.com

I'm not saying there isn't evidence of suicide, it's uncanny that the note was found on his death site. It could've been placed for all we know.

Anonymous said...

He didnt want to go on faking what he once as i child loved. He didnt want frences to turn out like him. nothing will bring him back but we will remember him

Julie Americanidiot said...


Anonymous said...

Julie american idiot it was sucide what else please keep going counrtney for fransis. apparntly it wasnt courtney because he told her he wasnt gonna be around anymore and he wanted her to be around kourtney.maybe you should read the chosen rejects kurt has confessed to attemps of sucide before

Anonymous said...

I think Courtney killed him. Shes a druggie slut I hate her. I was in my moms stomach when this happened. It sucks that I wasnt even around to see him. But alot of this case doesnt make sense. and who calls someone their "goddess of a wife" When he was gonna divorce her? She was going to lose everything. Her baby, her husband, her money, and her career (because kurt wrote her songs obviously). So she had a reason to kill him. So if you hate her like I do buy more Nirvana merch cause all the money goes to her and when she gets more money she will spend it on drugs and maybe if were lucky she will overdose :D

Anonymous said...

the lat few statements were thought to of been added in after the initial letter was written, they took a retirement letter and the last few words contemplate suicide.. not even in his handwriting like the rest of the letter. they should open this case back up